Tingling, tingling, tingling. Then nothing. A ghost? A shadow of who I was? I cannot be me any longer. A shadow. Invisible. I must be. I disappear. I cannotwillnotshall not m u s t n o t b e.
The alien part of me; the me part of me; all of me. I disappear. It’s better this way. I cannot see me. I see.
Ground.
I see.
A faint silhouette. All that remains of what was once a person sister daughter protector provider.
Fading. I smile. A Cheshire Cat, a sardonic smile, the last thing to leave. The last thing to be visible.
I stand.
Feel the ground beneath my feet. Taste the wind. but I am not “I” any longer. Hollow. Nothingness.
Because you can’t hate nothing.
You can’t blame nothing.
Nothing can’t feel shame, sorrow, guilt, grief, pain, failure.
Nothing can’t think feel touch want wish cry shout yell scream hate love die live remember forget.
You can’t hurt nothing.
Nothing can.
- July 17, 2010
So that's it right now. This is the third draft with the prompt I was given, but I haven't really edited edited, more like cut certain parts to make it more general. I need to shorten it.
I think we've all felt like disappearing at one time or another though. It's an interesting thought. The idea of escaping into nothingness because nothing can hurt nothing. I think stuff like this needs to be expressed, and I'm so glad that I have a form in which I can do that. Sorry again about yesterday's post fail. At least today's (actual today today's) is my own thoughts and words rather than someone else's.
Cheers,
-T.A.D.
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